Fuck! The swell is back,pain and everything again.
Craps,please tell me everythings gonna be fine.

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Haha! I know i'm being damn flicker minded.
I admit i was damn demoralizing,but now i'm feeling elated!
I don't wanna die,infact i wanna live life happily!
But you can't blame me for having those bad thinking,
Cos' aiya whatever.
There's still so much things in life i've yet to experience,so no way i'm ending my life so soon. ;)
Everything/everyone/everyday is waiting for me to get well.

Things - Big feast,that's for sure! L4d with my khakis! Sing K,Club/Pub/Shopping and of cos outing with all my friends and family!
People - All my beloved girlfriends and boyfriends,family&relatives and of cos HIM!
Days - Monday Tuesday Wednesday Thursday,and here comes my weekends,Friday Saturday & Sunday!

Yesterday my leg had become worst,swollen like gonna explode any moment.
Pain,red/black swollen and it's feeling hot.
Change of wound,and fuck,the stiches there seems so wrong.
Damn scare there's any infection there.
This morning when i woke up,OMFG!!
My leg has shrink back to what it suppose to be!
Since the day i fell,today is so far the first time seeing my feet so flat! haha
The month of March is gonna be over soon,
which means the days i'm able to get back on my feets are just round the corner?
Ahh craps,about 20 over more days? Still long.

&you know what,
everything isn't about love.
But,one thing for sure is my life would definitely suck without you. ;)

I know i'm not suppose to think negatively,
but there are times i really cant stop myself from thinking this way.
Suddenly i felt like crying out loud.

Why it seems like all bad things happen to me/my family?
Seeing my mum so stressed up with house chores and all,
yet i cant do anything?
Just can't get things right,which causes me to flare up at them?

A fat and ugly girl,and now worse.
Hard time walking,will i be limping in future?
Everyone is asking,how did i fall?
It's just a normal fall and 1 year of my life is ruin?
Fucking down luck,that's all i can say?
If my life is created just to suffer all kinds of fucking pain,
then why not just end my life.

Yes,at least there're friends/relatives and my family here with me,
but still ..
No one will understand how bad i feel inside.
How strong can i be?
I really miss those times back.
Looking at classmates blog,really makes me feeling lonely.
I've alrdy missed my connie's 18th birthday bbq,thomas's wedding dinner,Danny's birthday celebration,&now class chalet.
What's more am i gonna miss?
Next week,when my girlfriends are going back for school sportsday,
im going back to ttsh for checkup.
I hate myself,my life and everything! Fuckinghell.
I'm really afraid sept to come.
I'm afraid of going through everything again.
The needles, the operation, the bloodtest and hospital.
You guys will then think,since i've gone through all these why am i still afraid.
Reason is,i'm a fucking timid person.
FUCK IT ALL!~

1am flight. Which means,anytime now?
What is the first thing you gonna react when you see my feet?
Wondering... ..
Shocked to know,during your holiday,i've been through hell?
Does my feet knows your back,that's why is hurting like fuck now?


Everyone's going chalet tml,and leave me alone.
So sad,i want to be there,i want to have fun with my classmate.
I want to get together with them! I want to go ;(

Cheer up,don't be sad. You can enjoy your chocolates at home ;)
Awaits for his call,buhbye! ;)
I can't wait i can't wait to see him please!~

Blogging,Blogshop. Alittle of Dota & Cs.
Watching my korean dramas. An hour spend on the phone with Edrian.
Lynn, Huiling came accompany me for my lunch.
I had noodles for lunch,which my mum cooked before going to work
Followed by,Edrian surprised me when i said he was on the way to PL.
Alil chat on msn with friends.
Fed up with my sis for neglecting me when her bf is around.
Help my mum with the dishes after dinner.
Praised for being a good girl.
Ask mum if i could go to the class chalet,and she said "Please don't make me worried for you."
Which means NO.

That's about it? How i spend my day.
I know it's pretty lame la.
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It's time i head to my cosy bed. Goodnight everyone!

Since i can't go shopping,i can't resist myself from online shopping.
Haha,but what for i buy when i can't get to wear these days right?
I wonder.
I so want to buy that Vans Shoes. Holy crap!
There's 2 pairs in my mind rigght now.
But only can get 1 of them. Or should i get it when i've recover?Lynn and her bf together with edrian came over ytd.
Everyone is feeding me fatter with chocolates. hahaha~
But eating choc really makes me happier.
All along i thought no one cares for me,
but after this incident,i really knows everyone loves me ;)
Relatives have been ringing me up, asking am i feeling better and stuffs.
Bird nests, chicken essence, buying fish cos it's good after operation, fish essence (didnt know this exist) and those weird stuffs.

The only thing which upsets me so much now is,
I MISS LEFT 4 DEAD-ING. ;(

Very touched with all my friends,all the concerns and all.
Especially my dear anna,she's always visiting me whenever she's on leave.
Been keeping me accompany for the past 3 days.
Buying me lunch and snacks.
Scott came over ytd morning,then noon,
esther and anna came surprising me @ my door.

Took out the stiches this morning,instead of ytd.
It's hella pain,but the disgusting feeling is more,compared to the pain.
Plus,my sis insisted in taking photo of the whole process.
The doctor even pose there,while cutting the thread.
Yes,i never fail to cry whatever it got to do with my feet.
Since day 1 that i fell,to chinese sin seh,xray,hospitalized,before/after operation.
Everytime,i'll bound to tears.
I hate visiting doctor,i hate injections,i just can't stand these painfulness.
Ask me,then why i like piercing so much? I've no ideas.
Now,after all these,doubt i'll gonna have anym piercing done.

Recieved a call from azi,telling me that dee called him this afternoon.
Not even a text nor a call from him since day 1 he left town.
I hate it so much,whenever my love ones were to go out of town.
Cant wait for the day to come ;)

Been watching vcd's the whole noon time.
Till around evening time, beeying and scott came over.
Resident evil,from part 1 to part 3.
Almost 4 hours of show,before sis and her friends came.
Now,their playing mahjong making me unable to move around freely?
Stuck in my mum's room.
And,supposingly if nothing were to happen to my feet,
i'd attending thomas wedding today.
So sad,couldn't attend his wedding ,heard from my sis he look damn sauve today.
Anyw,hope you and your wife have a blissful marriage.
And like what you've mention,let me take a look at ya child when it's arrive to this world ;)

Will upload the pic of the removing of stiches some other days.
Goodnight people~

When cleaning up the wound. Freaking eeyeeerrr right?!

What the fuckkkking hellaa mans.

Just remembered,i cant wear any heels like at least 1 year? Fuck

Miss towning, l4d, eating anything i want, shopping, hangouts!

I miss every single thing that i use to do before all these craps.

But the only thing i dont miss is, sleeping, watching every show.

You know what,my tv is on like at least 15 hrs every single day?

I can tell you every show that is showing from 1pm to 12mn from channel 5/8/U.

Craps.

Anyway,luckily there's something call friends.

Jieying, Wanfong, Jiahui, Val & huiru came visiting me yst.

Today,Kaizhow, Anna, Keesoon & Keith came.

Thanks for the foods and drinks and snacks and everything damn thing ;)

Filling up my refrigerator, with choc, milk and fruits.

The only thing i enjoy and can eat at rest is, kinder bueno!

Yumyum~

Okay,im so gonna worry about friday.

Cos it's the day im gonna take out the stiches.

Don't tell me it's not pain,cos im not gonna believe. Sob
Hais,hais HAIS!!!!

This time,i ought to be at Zouk.
And yet,stuck at home. CRRAPPPS!
Anna laughed at me,asking me to ask my mum to bring me to zouk.
My mum say me, orh-bi-quek this teach me a lesson not to club and come home so late,
so my punishment is to stay at home for 2 mths.
But.. ..
Luckily relatives including,lynn weishing and monkey let me feel happy~
Thank you.

No nice wear,no make up,no shopping.
No drinking, no smoking, no l4d.
No clubs, no pub, no movie.
No seafood, no egg, no chicken.
No chilli, no fried food, no cold drinks.
No walking, no running, no jumping around.
N-O NO!

Just sit on the sofa and watch my show.
If i were to blog daily,what will i be blogging?

Today i hop to the toilet,then hop back to my room.
Ate lunch and hop to the sofa.
Hop Hop Hop,soon i'll become a a big fat rabbit. ;)

Dont worry people,i'll live positively. Cross my fingers,hopefully.
Good thing that i'll do within these 2months,pray hard.
Stop my habit from smoking, read more books and appreciate what's around me.
51 more days to the day i can get back on my feets!

Wondering where i've been?
Hell,i could say?
Look at the post back 2weeks ago,how happily im jumping around with my friends.
Yet now,i just gotta stay at home for 2months.
Can you imagine 2months staying at home,and cant even move about on my own.
Wherever i wanna go, like pee bath or etc, i needa call my mum or sis.
24hours,there'll be someone at home looking after me.
No where i can go,afraid anytime the pain will come.

This was what happen last thursday.
Had my day planned nicely where to go and everything.
Morning to have my interview,and then noon will meet my dudes for the movie PUSH.
Was crossing the road along chijmes with my sis,on the way to the interview.
Was talking while walking,had a trip.
Swollen in less than 5min,thought i just sprained my feet,cabbed over to chinese sin seh.
Couldn't even walk properly,thought after few days will be better.
After 2days,back to sin seh for change of wound,
this time was a man who did my feet.
Fucking hella pain,that i cried and scream.
He even scolded me,and force me to walk.
After all the rubs and bandage then he ask me to go for an xray,might be a fracture.
Over to poly clinic,wheel-chaired.
After 2hours of waiting,the doctor say it's too late for an xray,refer me to TTSH.
Everyone was telling me i'm gonna be alright,asking me not to worry too much.
Just a cast and calcium tablets will be enough,promised me no drip wont be hospitalized.
After the xray,during consultation.

Doctor: There's a fractured in your daughter's 2nd toes. She have to be hospitalized and might have to go on an operation.
( I looked at my mum and started to cry,afraid of the drip and stuffs. My mum promised me that i wont be on drip,everyone telling me that i'll be alright,but now? Operation!?! My mum cried after seeing me in tears. )
And their conversation carries on while i keep crying.
Doctor promised that there wont be any pain on drip.

While i was on the bed,being pushed to the waiting area,mum wasnt with me.
All i could say was,i kept crying the whole night.
At night,the doctor came and told me that the operation is either tonight(saturday) or tml.
Ligament torn,2nd toes bone broke (which holds the weight of your leg), if i dont operate,i wont be able to walk forever.
Burst into tears,really afraid.
Yes it's just a small operation,but you dont know how much pain i'm suffering.
And i ever told my gf's that one day if i were to put on drip,i would rather end my life.
Now,it's not just on drip but an operation.
Xiaotong, her cousin and qin han came.
In my mind is all about my feet and nothing else.
Cried the whole night,till my mum had to hug me to sleep.
Say that im a crybaby,mummy's girl anything you name.

Next morning,which was sunday,once i open my eyes i saw a policemen infront of my bed.
Took statements and stuffs.
Next moment,5doctors came.
Told me,my op will be on monday. 2 screws will be put in my feet to join back the joints.
And half year later,i needa have another op to remove the screws.
After the op,i wont be able to walk for 6weeks.
And i cant afford to fall agn,if i were to fall agn,i wont be able to walk for the rest of my life already.
Totally break down,since day 1 i admitted to hosp,it's almost everyday that i'll cry.
At that moment really thought of ending my life.
My gf's knows about it,i know the pain that im suffering,my mum will feel 10 times more hurt.

Monday,they havent tell me what time is my op.
Went to bath,and suddenly one nurse came to me and say,change into this,you'll go for your operation now.
I was like now?!! Told my mum im really very scare.
Cry all the way till im being pushed into the waiting room.
I told myself,i cant disappoint my family and friends.
When i wake up,i can see all my friends,so quickly get over with the op,
and then after everything i can go out with my friends and everything.
After the op,once i open my eyes,was at the waiting room.
At the point of time my leg was fucking pain, painkillers was in no help.
Injected another kind of stronger painkiller.
Pain was under control.
Pushed back to my room,saw xiaotong my mum and sis.
Feeling very tired and nauseous.
No appetite at all,and kept vomiting.
Friends and relatives in and out everyday.

And was discharge on tuesday.
Worst nightmare in my life?
Every 3 days gonna change wound and next week take out the stitches.
Count,half a year later when is it.
It's my 18th birthday,all my plans are gone.
I'm celebrating my birthday in the hosp,how great is it isn't it?
I know after this 2months i would lost alot of friends.
Everyone is going out having fun and all,me?
Stay at home and rot,is real rot.
People will sure say,dont think so much la.
You imagine,by the time i've recover,everyone will be busy with school.
My life now is like shit.
No school no work,everything is gone.

After all,feeling touched with all my friends and of course my family.
Seeing my family taking care of me and everything.
Mum had to take leave just for me.
Hospital bills and those check-ups will be a bomb to her.
The screws itself cost,$200 plus.
Feeling so useless that at times i would flare my temper at them.
I know i've give them enough trouble,sometime i cant help but to think,
beside all these shits,what else did i help up in this family?
My sis and mum had to take turns to stay over night at the hosp,
cos they knew im scare being alone and couldnt sleep.

Friends,for being there when i needed them the most.
Thanks esther for the flowers and balloon!
Xiaotong,gf's know that i was afraid of being alone,while they had things on that afternoon,therefore asked xiaotong to wait till my operation was over.
I used to be the one visiting people at the hospital,this time was people coming to visit me.
The feeling when your friend comes to visit you was really great,but when they had to say goodbye,really felt so lonely.
Thanks for all the console and encouragements,everyone!
When things really happen you know who's your real friends are.
Sorry to some friends,for not noticing you guys about my operation.

After seeing this,wonder what's your reaction.
But doubt you'll see this until u're back from bangkok.
Sometimes i couldn't stop my temptation from asking you to fly back to town now.
I know i cant be that cruel,hence all i could do is to wait till the day u're back.
It's not a matter about love,it's u're the best one all along by my side every single time.
Yet now,when my life was upside down u're not here.
Maybe im too use rely to on u?

Bumber ride.

Hangouts.

Checkup/town.
Baby.

Valentine day.

Chalet.

Hello! I've tons to upload!
Too much to say till i forgot what to say.
Main things to say, valentine's day was great,but he's even greater. ty
Chalet,celebrating kaizhow's and edmund birthday is awesome!


Initially was supposed to look after the dog for 3 months,
and after 2days i couldn't take it.
It was so damn cute (golden retriever), just that she shit and pee all around my living room.
I really miss baby sooooo much that i even cried. ;(
Miss her running around the living room,bringing her to central.
And of course cleaning her shit and pee! HA!


Been going out almost everyday,ohmans!
And i tell you the weather is sucha freak!
Thursday or friday,i forgot
Text his friend to see where is he,and intend to give him a surprise.
Over to his jamming there,and SURPRISE!
Lunched,aftermath and walk around,and the rain cause us both to be drench like hell,
park his bike at some nearby hdb's and cab home to meet sis for facial.
And you know what,i witnessed a bike accident.
And thank god nothing serious happen to the rider,
if not i'll be damn guilty for not ringing up the police or ambulance.

Have been meeting up with my dudes for the past 1 whole week. ;)
Is either settling their poly stuffs,towning or l4d!
Im so addicted to l4d can?

Yesterday,went to sit the bumber boat with anna kaizhow& kieth.
Yes,the day would be even greater if the weather wasn't that bad either.
Botakj's for dinner,slacked around till the rain gets slightly better before heading back.
Overnight @ swissotel with family.

Wont' be updating so soon. ;)