Skipped schoo another day.
I know this attitude of mine sucks nowadays la.
Too many shit things had happen,&it's really making me very restless.
Get expel or quit on my own record sooner or later?
I know it's silly when i come up to sec5&then say quit now.
So far,been failing many tests.
Especially maths,i deproved damn alot okay!
This teacher is really gonna pissed me off&making me hate her to the core.
Just because i didn't attend 1of her bridging prog&she wants me to see the principal.
Wtfuck okay!

But am i counted lucky today?
I was smoking outside amkhub,&sudd 2officers in thier homeclothes approach me.
Showing me their officers pass,
"Can you show me your cig"
Took mine out,let them check&then,"okay,thanks."
Damn lucky la,i thought they are gonna ask for my ic or what la.
&just so lucky i didn't buy foreign cig this week.
&dee came over to buy lunch for me when i msg him there's no food at home.
Really didn't expect him to come at all.
&haven't been eating my dinner for days already.
Good or bad? "Jian fei!!!" muahahaaa

Your sweettalks brighten up my day.
Yet your lies&unfaithfulness causing me to cry.
These happiness is not what i expected in the first place.
Your every words is filled with torns.
So what if i don't get use to it?
So what if i don't wish to carry on my love?
Tears,won't be appearing again.

HEY YA PEOPLE!=DDD
First thing in the morning,ran 1.6km for pe.
To my surprise it took me only 12.1mins.
Maybe to you is kinda slowwwww,but to me it's FAST FOR A FATASS LIKE ME OKAY!
MUAHAHAHHAHAHAAAXX!
Gave bridging prog a missed cause the humidity is killing me!
But end up,going hub with sis for NYNY on my house.
Cost me a big bomb,$42&fewcents.

&then deee came over my house to find me.
Heart to heart talks made me burst out.=(
But his jokes made me LAUGHOUTLOUD!
Told him every little bits of stuff about everything bothering me.
&he only knows how to say,
"hais life's is so unpredictable,what can we do?Can't do anything then let god decide lo"
-_-/// but talking to him is NOT WASTE of breathe,haha!
Cause he's really someone nice to talk to when you are in need of ears.
Within these few miserable days,there are sooooooo many nice people who are there for me.
Monkey,Melvin,Shuling,Anna,Esther,Siaotong,Beeying,Connie&&&manymore la!
Without them i guess you might really see me dead already.
ThankYou so much my dearys,=DDDD
I'll treasure my life by not having the thoughts of suicide anymore,yea?

Second dress i tried,$49.9o

















First top i tried,$59.9o.



































CuteLittleBrooch.

I'm so in love with this song "WO BU HUI CHANG GE" by luo zhi xiang.
Back to schoo,slept the first 2periods away,
Taking notes and doing work till recess,&then art!
3periods of chitchatting for us,was yakking away throughout even mrTan couldn't stand it.=xD
Went hme got ourself changed up then junction8.
Shopped around for my CNY clothes,saw manymany nice one.
But waiting till thursay then i'm gonna buy it with my sis.
Treated my girlf's Mosburger,that's all i spend today.
I'm not being generous or something is that,
they treated me things when they got their pay too.
So,yea i'm just repaying them back.=D


Fcuking basturd,i damn angry now!
ANGRYYYYYYYY,i just feel like whacking you up okay!
Why did i made it happen once again.
fuckfuckFUCKKKKKKINGBAS.

Had a good 12hrs of sleep today.
Gave schoo a missed as i was so moodless to attend any lessons.
After schoo,anna accompanied me to get my mc.
&then went looking for her shopping stuffs,had Mosburger&got myself a pair of heels.






&now sitting infront of this com,so many things running through my mind.
Good&bad images.
I trust that you ain't the kind of guy people says.
My mind is gone, i'm spinning round.
&deep inside, my tears i'll drown.
I'm losing grip, what's happening...

Friday,went out with my girlf's to get their CNY clothes,
aftermath went to BotakJones@Tpy outlet.
Those were the pics they took.
Went over to kpool after meal which was already 10plus.
It's was totally disaster for me that day.
Nothing i could do to relieve myself besides taking many puffs that even cause me to vomit.
I don't blame anyone seriously,besides myself for the foolishness.
I tried already,but then again things happen.
Hopefully these time is for real.
&you know what,never can you expect me of having gastric pain.
Cause i seldom skip my meals &even i does,gastric is something i never exprirence.
&today,i finally know what it's like to have it.
Been skipping meals recently,i even survive a day with just a cup of bbtea.
What got into me man,i wonder..
Toturing myself for sucha a worthless person?


Please,i really had enough with these nonsense.
Stop making me sucha fool if i don't mean anything to you.
I never ask you for anything in return,just asking you at least don't treat me like an idoit,
taking me for granted like nobody's bussiness.

I'm just very tired.
Can i get a break of my life?

CONGRATS,You've got an A2 for your eng!=D
Was force to sit for the giving out of results.
Next year at this point of time,i would be one of them out there.
Either crying or happily laughing when i take my results.
Guess i might be crying by then.
Got home around 3pm.
Was doing my nails&went to meet MFH awhile along the stairway of my house.
He made me laugh when i was drinking green tea,
&you know my habit.
SPLASH MY DRINKS ON HIM.
You can't never imagine that impression on his face la,
it's soooo damn hilarious la!
Rushed off around 5plus for his jamming.
He begged me to accompany him go,but i was tooo tired plus i have homework to do.
So,other times perhaps?=xD


I feel so restless at times.
Sometimes looking at these pills,it's rather tempting.
Just feel like taking it,&leave the world.

Tomorrow is the 24thjanuary,the day when o's results are out.
Dee&many other beloved are getting their results.
All to best to them,

especially myGorgeouspartner,SHULING& myFuturehusband,DEE!
Wondering why dee is still having his o's?
Cause he was so dum to fail his eng paper 2years back.Haha!
Schoo was freaking restless today.
Geog &maths tests.
Hopefully i pass my geog paper cause i wrote damn alot,please..
Maths paper was blaaaa,FAIL & that's for sure la.

Not because i gave up.

The reason is,i hate algebrass,ohgoodnessgracious!

I always have thousand&one careless mistakes on these sums.

Sorry to dissapoint you agn&agn.

But i really tried very hard,extremly to the core.

KEYNOM.

In the end,a missed call got me so unresisted.
&therefore,i couldn't bear to leave.

Perhaps it's time i stop interfering with your life,
stop wishing for these&that about you.
I know i've said these a thousand time that i'll forget.
But seems like time after time,i failed to do so.
Within these day,i really understand what it meant by,

"CHERISH THE PERSON YOU LOVE BEFORE IT'S TOO LATE".
And i also learned not to let people go over you.
Sometimes,people may make use of you,just like how you did to me..
Whatever is it,i've decided since i know you're alright now,
i shall take my leave from now.
Even now,we're left nothing to talk about.
It's like our first time being so speechless on the phone that you even hung up.
So what's the point of clinging on to you?

Nothing much to mention about schoo life,whatelse besides studying?
Went town with $5o,came back empty handed &which cost me $30.Omfg
Today,work my afternoon as usual yea?
Then bugis to get my cheap vintage bag which's on sales at just $9.9o.=DD
Roam around there,&then went to have WANTON MEE for dinner!
My first meal,you know!Miracle rights,i know!hahaa
Bused back to kpool with my girls& there goes my $3o.

Change a new clothes for my blog,how is it?
Rather plain? But i like it!=D

Studystudystudy,boring life siol.
Had the thoughts if i ever regret going to sec5?
Yes&no,that's my answer.haha!

Had a good night sleep lst night but still,was so damn sleepy.
2periods of Humanities&additional "bridging programs" of ss.
It almost took my life mans!
Freaking tired,which i can even fall asleep during writing.
&the words came out like nonsense la.
Homesweethome after that which was already 4pm?!

As i was using the com,heard this lion dance lorry passingby.
Reminds me of the time,just 1year ago.
I guess a year ago this time,i should be on the phone with him as he's on his way to work.
&during CNY,everynight will be waiting for him to finish his chusai&blablaa.
I don't miss him but i miss the times.Haha
Recently he took part in some competition,hope he did won la.~tralalalalalalas!
PASTSPASTS okays.=D

Ahhh,soooooooo many test coming up.
So not prepare at all la?!

Sometimes you makes me wonder alot.
Wondering if you ever cares about me.
At good times,any topics we can also talk about.
But at bad times,not even a word from you the whole day.
Bickering around with you is the happiest times spent.
But at times,either of us will flare up &then,apologize to the other party.
I like to see the times where you will act cute to me,lol.
Cause' you really looks so cute,only at times.
At times when you show your attitudes,it's really very gay.
Maybe i'm rather easy jealous or petty.
You should know why i'm always the one flaring up.
Don't you find your words are little too hurting?
By mentioning their names when you already know who is in my mind.
I wish to know if i stand a chance from the start.
But second thought,i know there's never a chance for me.
The relationship between as will always stay as friends,isn't that enough?
That's all i ask for,nothing much more.=D

Ms faridah's wedding.



Blablabla these days,went over to temasek poly open house.
& pooled in the night on friday.
As usual,my saturday afternoon is book for my work.
Aftermath,downtown to meet anna&beeying.
Looking for my vintage bags,but couldn't find.=(
Met the guys & they ask us to go esplanade to find the rest,while anna left first.
So walked down to esplanade.
Woah,my feet's are fucking pain okay.
Wore that schoo pumps,first time wearing?
Puff&drink beers@some weird fountain area?Burping like shit mans!
Back to kpool while the rest left us.
Throat is getting worst,even after today's ten stick of cig,hell i know.
Too stress up,you know?
& especially when someone pierce your heart so deeply,it so makes you feel like smoking even more.





i promise myself i won't.
I would rather you tell me the cruel answer then giving me so much fake hopes,
&then crash all of them like hell.
how i wish i could get you outta my heart now.

I know we haven't spoken for a while.
But I was thinkin bout you,&it kinda made me smile
So many things to say.
Excuse me, I really didn't mean to ramble on,
But there's a lot of feelings that remain since you've been gone
I guess you thought that I woulda' put it all behind me
But it seems there's always somethin right there to remind me
Like a silly joke, or somethin on the t.v.
Boy it aint easy
I get that same old feeling
Wish I could press rewind Turn back the hands of time
And I shouldn't be telling you.
ilikeyou.(=

It's like 575314862514years since i had a wonderful sleep.
Couldn't sleep during the night but feel like sleeping during lessons.
I must really change this habit if i wanna pass my o's man!
STUDYSTUDYSTUDY!

Thinking if i should go with mum to tokyo during CNY,4jan-9jan.
Tokyo,reminds me of toyko difts,lol!
The biggest disneyland&&blablablaaa,you know how much i wish i could go!
But CNY,i will definately miss my angbao&HIM?
Angbao is not that impt,thou it really is,haha!
Maybe sounds silly?
Because of him,&miss the chance of going?


My attitudes are coming back already.
Maybe partly is because of periods? But then i know i'm too much la.
Been quarreling with my family over a small little matter.
&my attitudes towards my friends are changing.
What the fcuk has got into me man!?

Argh.Why did you hesitated to believe that i like you in the first place,
& now you choose to believe in everything?
Finally i've stop thinking about everything & now everything starts all over again.
&now you went missing outta sudd.
You asked me,why didn't i call or msg you.I didn't answer your Qs.

But if you were me,will you still call when someone is avoiding you?

You knew that i like you,

yet you keep saying that i like so&so,don't you know i felt so hurt?

HEY PEOPLE,i'm back!!
Schoo was rather blaaaaa these days.
How fun can schoo be,beside the mischevious-ness& the times with my girls.
Fri,which is ytd,homed after schoo till evening,
kfc with xiaotong & then beeying came along for pool.
Pooled for 3hours,woah rights?Which cost about 19+++
Today,work my whole afternoon.
&you know what?I did my maths homework okay!hehe
Then bugis with beeying,bought my stationaries&schoo bag.
I saw this vintage bag which cost 70bucks over.
I'm sooooo in love with it la!
Should i get it,or wait till next month pay?=C
Downtown for hongkong cafe,big feast time!
Back to amk for pool then HOMED!
Been feelin' damn sick la,sorethroat&blocknose.
Which's causing breathing difficulties,arghhh!

i'm soooo happpppppppppppppyyyyyyyy,youknowyouknow!=DDDD

Finally im' uploading my pics.Is it alot?
But there are more to go,just because im' too lazy.=x
Everything bad has pass,a brand new refreshing year.
It's sound's like this year will be better,hopefully okay!
Let's pray hard i can get thru the year 2oo8 with a big smile& not ending up sobbing away.

First day of schoo was irksome.
&you know what,i wasn't prepare for schoo at all!
I haven't gotten a new schoo bags,pencil case,notebooks&stationariesssssss.
&even my textboooks!
Isn't that HILAROUS?
Teachers are buggin' us to be prepare for o's &blablablah.
To me,it's seems im' still striving for my n's,ohgrave!
Everything in schoo seems to be soo empty or something.
After schoo went to catch "avp2".
It's damn fucking nice with the sudden shocks&yeah?
But i totally hate it when the story stops halfway
& we've to wait till part3 for the ending.
And that is 1or2years later where we people already forgotten the storyline.

Ohya,did i mention how i celebrated my chirstmas&new year?
So everything goes.....


1st of all,i've to wish everyone
"MERRY CHRISTMAS DUDES!"
2nd i've to wish everyone
"HAPPY NEW YEAR,&WELCOME 2oo8!"
Thou it's rather late but,better than not wishing at all?

Spend my christmas eve in a freakin' boring way.
Went to zhiwei's house to cele his bday,then countdown@a nearby playground.
&like what everyone's mouths are saying,
this year's christmas countdown was rather dreary.
As for chritmas day itself,CHRISTMAS PARTY@GOSSIP.
After partying,went over to HYATT hotel,as mum have complimentary 1night stay.
Then next day,downtown with mum to buy her winter clothes for her holiday.
Caught the movies,"REDLINE"&"I AM LEGEND".
If you like tokyo drift,then you'll definately love redline!
If you like resident evil,you'll definately love i am legend!
Went to dye my hair black,which cost$50,ohhhhhmannns!
It's almost the same price as colouring my hair,so not worth it at all!
Then whatelse?
Dxo on 30th with xueqi& saw blablablaaaaaa.
&&&
Went out with my girlf's as usual,&pubbing with monkey&co.
&weekends,went gossip again.
This time everything went sooo wrong,got sooo tipsy that day.
Made a fool of myself there by pointing right into some unknown guy's face &say
"there this guy very handsome hor,he look like XINZHONGREN siol".
Point into XZR's friends face &say,"There's this guy is XZR's brothers!"
Can you believe i'll do sucha a thing?
Vomittd onto beeying's leg,i know it's horrid!
How i got home,got not much idea,but i know it's beeying hailed a cab back.
& the next morning was hell for me,
giddyness,bodyaching everywhere& vomitting every now&then.
Then in the night,went with conn to some pub to find shawn.
Countdown @ the pub,then headed to another pub cause it's soooo crowded,
then again i drink,but i didn't get drunk this time.
&blablablah,as usual you know what monkey will be like if he knows about it.
&& so unlucky saw this moronic ken & he went to tell monkey,
sooo long story,called me & make a din la.
But in the end,i never lose in any quarrels you know,haha!
It's time to go for my nap,GOODBYE!

WANFONG.









She's joining in the fun,TAKE1.









Acting cute TAKE2.








See my fake lashes.Anyway,i've closed the piercing,ohsosad!








Xueqi,day@gossip during christmas.








Take2.








Take3.








TAKE4.











Me&Germaine,TAKE1.











TAKE2




















They're the sex!








y cele,which is also christmas eve.








Me&clara.








See my longggggg hair,=DD











Ohhh our green day.











Me&huiru.











Snapshot!


















Random shot.




















GIRLf's.