I know i did something really silly,

but instead of feeling touched, FH kept laughing @ me ;(

I dreamt that he(Bastard) was celebrating with me after i gotten my chi o's result.

Could it be true,but skip those bickers will do.. ha ha!

Bickering are sweet but it always leads to a big quarrel in the end.

Am i too much or am i right?

Try to agitate me? Yea you manage to do it,and i'll leave!

Fuck kyou ok, please don't mind my vulgarities.

Cause those should know it, it was him who got me so flared up.

Big thankyou to FH and truely promise me THAT YOU WILL STOP LAUGHING AT ME!

hahaha i already so poor thing and yet you still wanna make cry.

i kick ya ass then you know uh! ;)))

School's sucha bore? Trying to concentrate but still i can't?

&the day to o'lvl is countable.

Alright,school was alright those days.

Friday was my first and my last time ethnic wear?

Feelin' great,united girls of formidable wore tgt. ;)

Rushed back home after school then downtown with sis&her boyf.

Aftermath, Junction8 with beeying and xiaotong.

Crapped alot about those funny and mischievous things we did.

Back to ang mo kio for pool, PACKED LIKE HELL!

But,we waited for less than 15min for table ;)

Back home only at 12plus?

Got up early,

met dee & lynn together with zyan @ my house void-deck awhile then off he went for his jamming.

Been almost a week we last met-up?

Prepared myself then off to meet my girls to fort canning park.

"BALLET UNDER THE STARS", too bad i don't appreciate much on ballet,

accept for musical, i love it!

Left the place earlier,then met everyone @ the pub inside old police academy.
Celebrated beeying's bday in advanced,happy birthday my girl!

Alil tipsy in the end, stayed up till 5am?

So many funny action from us, singing so loudly into the mic , xiaotong dancing "ai ni" in the middle of the pub, &she went into the gents just because she's v urgent. LOL!

It's absolutely hilarious la!

Hang over in the morning,cancelled my tuition, slept for pathetic 3hours.

Going for a short nap then off for my show,bye dudes!

Ps pic's will be uploaded some other days. ;)

I guess the friendship between us is also over.

I'm not sad , i won't drop a tears.

Cause I've cried out all my tears yesterday @ the pub.

The 1st i was @ the pub,we're happily on the phone.

This time, nothing at all. Not a word.

I've thought it out,really.

I'll not take the initiative, not anymore.

"Why bother about someone who doesn't cares about you,

yet neglect the person who cares for you."

Considering what friends around had told me,

perhaps if thing's are still going smoothly after my o's, 'll consider about it. ;)

I had enough, really.

Please stop being sucha bastard in my eyes,could you?

Don't make me sounds like i'm that despo for your presence.

Maybe i'm yearning for the day of sharing our life's together,

but without you,i can still live my life.

Bitches who flings with you, bastards like you who goes around looking up for girls.

Which equivalents to FUCKERS,get it?

You've have your own pride, so do i.

I'll always remember this word "FOR?",that's what you answered me.

I don't need it okay. What do you take me for?

I'm not like those girls who let you step over like a fool.

Cause i know where's the limit to everything, no doubt how deep my love is. ;)

Ok,finally found a perfect time to blog?

But look at the time,it's Monday 4.17am,WHATT?! i know.

Who'll blog at sucha timing and especially when i've sch next morning.

But after having caffeine during late evening, toss around the bed for 3damn hours.

And ended up text-ed girl's and my teacher i ain't gg sch tml.

Announcing to the world i can't sleep.

No doubt having to go jamming the next morning, dee still accompany me on the phone now.

He wants me to say " THANK YOU LAHHH! " lol

Just had an hour odd of studies,and now it's time to relax. ;)

During my weekends.. .. ..

Friday,

Over to cheryl's place to bake muffins for my mum bday.

Met up anna &guys to hangout then roaming around amk.

Saturday,

Celebrated mum's birthday @ terminal 3, Henry's bar or Harry's bar?

I forgotten. Anw,it's worth giving a try!

Met up with my girls then over to kpool.

Sunday,

Junction8 with beeying then over to Thomson plaza Starbucks for revision during the night.

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY MUM&Wanfong!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY Darran ,i really miss you.

It's been 2years since you went without a word,

couldn't get any way to speak a word to you,not even an address left.
None of us knew what happen to you,neither we know when you're coming back

All we could do is leaving a message in your friendster hoping one day i could receive ya msg.

awaiting for your return,& regardless of those disputes i all along treated you as my real brother.

You raised your voice at me the another day,&i hung up your calls.

On the same night, you apologized.

The next day, you mention that you missed me.

On the same night, we quarrelled agn.

&agn,you apologized.

Perhaps this is how we communicate with one another by bickering?

Ok,see the picutures during the day compared to the night.

What's the difference?
MAIN DIFFERENCE IS, I LOST MY DAMM SHADES! Fuck mans!

Damm it, i feel like screaming all the vulgarities out!! WTF la

How absent-minded can i be la.

Is it in the cab , pub or somewhere? WHERE!?

Thou it's just a normal shades, but damm!

I FUCKING LOVE IT THE MOST CAN!

And wth,i only realise it upon looking at the pictures.

Cause i remembered that i didn't take out my shades when i got home!

FUCKING JACKASS MORONIC FOOL!

His birthday is coming and what the fuck my prelims are here.

So sorry, i know you'll understand me yea?You're the best,GURANTEE! ;)

Can you believe, tears came rolling down for stupid reasons agn. FREAK!

Goodluck for tml o'lvl listening chinese paper 3!

I need your magic words,pleaseeeeeeeeeee! ;) ha ha

Was really a great weekend for me? ;)

Be it with my family, my girlfs or my boygirl friends.

Friday, went over to sumo house with mummy for dinner.

Catch up alot with her, she told me how she felt and everything and so did i.

I told her, my school my friends my exbf, this current "fucker" guy and so much more.

Went back to wait for dee's call,which is by then already plus midnight?!

Headed over to Uncle Zen's pub,and yet again i wasn't allowed to drink. ;(

I know it's for my own good cause i wasn't feeling well these days, so yea?

Everyone,including lynn was dead drunk there,ACCEPT FOR ME and LEON!

Dee's was being force by leon to drink half a cup of chivas w/o any mixer.

Leon is damm pro can, he like cannot drunk one. LOL

Dee's drunk, Lynn's drunk, Zyan drunk,no one else to accompany me.

Uncle Zen wanted to drive me home,but so coincidence received monkey's call.

And he initialled to ride me home so yea,saved the $ on cab fare. ha ha ;x

Homed at about 4am? Sleep for about 3hours and i woken up by dee's call.

Argghhh, accompanied him on the phone as they all were at Leon's place.

After hanging up,realize i was damn awake and couldn't get back to sleep.

So teevee all the way till late afternoon then went over to grandma there with daddy.

And again i told him everything about my life including my "fucker"! lol

Daddy agree with me, that those girls who push themselves to my "fucker" are bitches. lol

Ok,maybe they're just flinging around,but how can you expect me not to be jealous right?

Chat with grandma for an hour or so then headed to town to meet my girlfs.

Suddenly have an urge to drink so thinking of places and calling for people to join us.

So,ended up at xiaotong's whoever pub.

I'm happy that "fucker" at least shows some concern for me.

Went outta pub and phone with him telling him whole story.

Ok,i admit i was alil tipsy but i know what i'm talking.

I just can't control and started talking all the nonsense to you.

Xiaotong's father came around 2plus 3 to help us drink some leftovers,and drove us back.

He even paid for the drinks,and yea i already thanked him.

Me and beeying didn't wanted to go home , so followed her homed to PEEE

then went to meet J for supper @ jalan kayu prata house.

Home ard 4plus and use the com.

While i was on the phone with dee,realize i was so retard to tell "fucker" those nonsense.

How idiot can i be mans, guess after telling him those he should know i'm jealous with those girls?

LOL! But i doubt anything will change la,but at least he don't entertain them right?!

Had 12 hours of sleep and woke up ;)

Dota @ Zyan's place? Dota @ Lanshop? Or pool later. ;)

Buhbye,off to change and off i go. Buhbye!

Pictures will be uploaded some other days.

What happened during the past few days?!

So many damm things happen these days.

Thought i supposed to stay at home during Sunday.

But ended up, dota @ parklane there? With anna and the guys.

thanks anna,for keeping me accompany and cause ya to bore yeah? ;)
Then headed down to pratahouse to meet my girlf's.

Had my checkup.

Okay,yes i admit i was so afraid of everything and anything might happen to me.

Afraid till i even cried on those days before my checkup.

Hopefully nothing goes wrong?

Dim sum with my sis after my checkup @ Chinatown.

Very next day, i quarrelled with my entire family?

And fuck! At that very point of time i really wanted to end my life.

I asked myself what's the point of living when even my family goes against me?

Thou i'm really so pissed with them, but i know they meant well for me and loves me.

But you know,it really sucks when it comes to the feeling that you hate to go home.

Hate to go home,talking to nobody accept keeping yourself in the room and cry?

And your family treats you like a bitch? The feeling really sucks you know!

I really wanted to walk outta of the house but i know,

i don't have the ability to support myself

when i don't even have a job and i'm still half way studying.

And so, suicide is the only path i can take.

Feeling so depressed, that i text-ed my girlf , lyn , dee and monkey about dying.

And thanks to those who were there for me,even my girls, made me think through.

They know if i walk out of the house or kill myself, things will not get any better but even worst.

So chatted with girlf on the phone,was crying away when we're on the phone.

But we hang up laughing out loud. Can you believe it? lol

Talk about everything under the sun.Be it, guys.. family.. and life.

She always knows and understands me so well! Special thanks yea?

And now,everything is alright accept for my sis.

We haven't been talking for the past few days.

You know,when you quarrel with somebody?

and if you're the first to start the conversation,means you lose? LOL

I know it sounds lame but yea,i dont wanna lose.

School school and school, what else?

Tests , Chinese o'lvl listening compre , Prelims and then, O'LVL!

3more months,or perhaps less then that!

The time when i needed you so much,where were you?

Ended up, it was my best friends who pulled me through those ups&downs.

Did you even cared? Can't be bothered either, isn't it?

I tried my best to be there for you whenever you're down,

but did you even care for me as a friend? I doubt so too.

Time after time i choose to believe that i ain't a spare tyre to you,

no matter how much people try asking me to giving, i'd insist on myself.

But recently these word(spare tyre)have been popping up in my life.

So i was wondering is the word using to describe me?

Do you believe in fate?

Fate to know you? Or fate doesn't brings you to me?

A guy(i know you'll be reading) whom i know for only half a year can treat me better than someone i knew 2yrs or even more, i guess?

Whenever my phone rings,how i wish it was from you.

Be it a call or a simple text, but just nothing from you.

At times you can be so concern and at times? Not even a word.

Suddenly i felt so silly,

why don't i love someone who treats me so good and be there for me whenever I'm down?

&yet,i like the person who hurts me so much and doesn't gives a damn about me?

I'm still hoping that one day, everything i do will not be drain off.

HEYYOOO~

@Lynn's place with her bf, dee, zyan , yue wei , chris and 2more unknowns.

Haven't been on the net for almost 2 days?

Starting to get sick&tired of it alrdy,so yea? Won't be using much lately.

Ohyaah,what are we doing here @ lynn's place?

&of all places why must be her place right! I also wondering, lol

I've no idea either,it's because we have no where to go so landed up HERE!

Wanted to catch a movie but,nonono! Have been spending too much on movies!

So the reason for nowhere to go,it's because of MEEEE! ha ha =x

Before arriving to this heavenly place, went over penisular to get chris tattoo touch-up.

DAMMM GROSS LA!

The "zzzzzzzzzzyyyyyyeeeee" sound of the machine makes me and lynn wanna faint!

LOL!

ME:Wah lau,the sound enough to make me faint la. PLUS THE BLOOD,dead!

Albert(tattoonist) : ha ha! then you still want to put tattoo?

ME:I WANT,of course!Why not! At most , you make me faint then quickly put for me before i wake up

Everybody : WAHHAHAHHAHAAA! Why not you die then put,sure won't feel any pain.

ME: Yaya SHUT UP! ARGGGHH~

Aftermath,head over to town to find zyan @ his workplace, topshop!!!

While waiting for him to finish work,was roaming around topshop to look for nice clothes!

But was toooo broke to get any. ;(

Dinner @ cine,then youth park to find dee's jamming friends,which is the 2 unknowns.

lollloooll~and thennn....we arrive here.

Was here since 3am till now,see the timing!

But i did sleep awhile just now, so wasn't that tired.

Anyw, tml is holiday! YOUTH DAY!

&&Where i went / what happened for the past few days?

Chinese o'lvl oral,&okay! I SCREWED IT UP!

Topic : Youth Olympic thingy...

Q : S'pore have what advantage to that? What i feel about it? &blablablaaa.

Dammit lah but what to do? It's over,don't wanna talk about it.
School school school!

Fri night, went to find anna&guys at central.

Went over her house, dai-di and uno cards. How bored are we mans!

After edmund's movie, met him&wayner for pool.

Initially was suppose to ask him help me dl dota,but toooooo lazy to bring my laptop along.

So just met up for pool and then i initialled to go raiders to play dota.

&finally i've learned how to play but dammmm noob lah, i know! ha ha
Esther came over @ around 12plus?

Cabbed down to town while the 2 of them went home.

Caught "Stranger" @ o345. So between 12plus to o345 we had nowhere to go.

Walking up and down left to right from cine to far east to paragon to taka.

Heart talks and supper @ longjohn.

Stranger was a damm dreadful show la.

&especially,the both of us was screaming like hell.

It's like the movie "The scream" everything about murders

& they never show whose the murderer.

Homed only at 6am,and tuition at 1130.

ok,someone's rushing to go for breakfast so yea! BUHBYE~